YOU WERE NEVER MINE AND NEVER WOULD BE....

"Learn from your mistake", that's everybody is telling me, I answered: "YOU DON'T NEED TO COMMIT MISTAKE JUST TO LEARN"

Without pain, there would be no suffering, with out suffering we would never learn from ouR mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows, without it, there's no way of life.

Every one always  thought would be ok... However all thoughts are wrong as per a band say in thier song " Marami ang namamatay sa MALING AKALA!!!"

I thought we have a relationship, I thought you love me, I thought all we shared together was SPECIAL, I thought the long talk we have were true, it only entertained you coz I am the one who's calling you. After work, I tend to text you if i got home safely or want to know your whereabouts, and after that, I used to call you then have a little chit-chat eventhough we're together for the whole night. We never ran out of story to tell,
On my rest days we tend to talk over the phone for long hours, sharing stories, and expierence in lifes and anything under the sun.
However all them were just to entertain you while you're wasting your hours to talk to me, And I thought all your laugh was true, Yes! it's true coz I tend to make you smile or laugh sometimes coz of my funny antics. However, still you just laugh or smile simply because you were just entertained...
You know it's different if you see a lady smiling because she's in- love, you could see even her eyes is smiling too... And I don't see that on you... You even intentionally hid me to every one, At that time I was in a relationship with another womaan, so that's acceptable and of course reasonable coz you don't want to be tagged as "MISTRESS or OTHER WOMAN". And i respect that, All who know that we have "SOMETHING SPECIAL" are those people who were close to you, and I have to tell it also to one of my close friends too...
Now as time passses by, you simply drop me for some lame reason which I can't understand why....
Moving On would be very hard on my part, I love you so much It's hard for me to let you go... I just respect your decision that you have to let me go for someone else coz you're Happy NO MORE with me. And you don't want to be tagged as kept woman or other woman, MISTRESS.
As in the process of  Moving on, I need to divert all my attention to something that I could not think that I was a fool in love with some one which you don't know if she love you or not...





Eventually, I found out that she doesn't LOVE ME EVEN A BIT in the time that we were still together, And she leaves me because she was not Happy in what we have at that moment, she could prefer a single rather than sharing time with someone,Yes! I admit I'm unfair, coz I'm having two relationship. I'm being unfair to her. "What she doesn't know won't hurt her." as per ANNE CURTIS's line.

Now as I have moved on, I am enjoying living my life ALONE, I found out that

you have a relationship with a guy who have a family, and you are proud to be his girl, eventhough you told me last time that you don't want to be tag or called a MISTRESS and here you are, having an affair with a family guy, I'm not saying that I'm clean or what or I don't commit mistakes. What really makes me not understand is, you are what you don't want to be,

I see you walking with the girl you replaced me with. You looked at me and you make it looks like we've never met. I looked at you, yes, I see you happy with her. All I can say is I'm Happy for you..those words might come out of my mouth like that, but inside, it kills me how you acts like you don't know me and to see you with someone else.

yeah! It's not my business. It's your life anyway, my question is, when you're with me or you were wasting your time with me, you're not as proud as you are right now, It shows that you DON'T LOVE ME at all. And you're so much IN- LOVE with him that to the extent that you hang along with him in the public as if he don't have a family, unlike with me, you hid our relationship to every one to the extent that you even deny that we have a relationship at all. And now you are mad at me? coz what your man know that we have a relationship and you deliberately deny it.

I can't blame you, from the start all I know that you love me! As time pass by, you let me feel that I am NOTHING  to you, you make me feel worthless and if it's posible that you don't know me at all you would do it... and for my benefit I just found out that you NEVER LOVE ME at all.

I know by myself, that I have mistakes too. In the first place I let myself invovle to you. And I assume that we have a relationship or you are in-love with me... I was stupid enough not to notice that you didn't love me even a bit, You just find me NICE.And don't KNOW what you're thinkin, for me you just make me believe that YOU LOVE ME but the TRUTH is NO! YOU DON'T!

That's one of the main reason why you kept what we have to everyone and you don't want anyone to know that there's something going on between the two of us, All that we share and enjoyed are all lies, IS THAT TRUE? Sorry for being sO bitter to what happen to me, I just can't get the point what you're in right now?

JEALOUS? HISTRIONIC? YES! MAYBE.... or I just LOVE you so, and it's hard for me to let go... My friend told me it's about time to set you free, coz if you would pay attention closely to her eyes you would see that she is VERY HAPPY where she is right now, whatever she is doing she is very much contented and happy whatever the consequence would be,and she is perfectly know what she is dealing with... She's is intelligent enough to make her own decisions...

I suddenly paused and realize, I'm just being unfair to her or to myself, She doesn't love me and I still keep loving her, eventough I know the fact the she would NEVER love me...

I realized that she was never been mine, and NEVER would be, she just let me expierence of what's life if I would be with her, and I would not regret the days that I 'm with her even she acknowledge me as her boyfriend or not...

If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

It's the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say "what's the matter with him?" I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walking away.

YOU WERE NEVER MINE AND NEVER WOULD BE....

NO OTHER WOMAN that's a SECRET AFFAIR

A Secret Affair is an upcoming 2012 romance drama film directed by Nuel Naval, and it stars Anne Curtis, Derek Ramsay and Andi Eigenmann. It's a love triangle story set to be released this October 24, 2012 in more than 200 theaters in the Philippines by Viva Films^[2][3][1]

Third party relationships is the trend in Philippine mainstream movies nowadays. A Secret Affair tackles the same theme about lies, temptations and rules in a relationship.



It's been a trend in our local movies nowadays...
 Like:

-Have you heard the news I saw "MY NEIGHBOR's WIFE" with Mayor Bossing...
* Really??  She's the new "The MISTRESS"? I thought Mayor Bossing known for reputation for being "NO OTHER WOMAN" Man?
- That's what you think??? That's why they have a "SECRET AFFAIR"!

SEE....even in our music industry....

KABET by GAGONG RAPPER

[Verse 1]Kay sakit namang isipin na sa puso mo ako'y pangalawa sa tuwing makikita kitang kasama siya pinipikit ko ang aking mga mata at sa gabing kasama mo siya halos hindi ako makahinga kayakap ko ang bote ng tequila nagmumukmok sa ibabaw ng lamesa naghihintay hanggang sumapit ang umaga nang muli kang makasama.

Ano ating lagay hindi mapalagay ako'y nasasaktan pag hawak mo kanyang kamay sa kanya ka sa tanghali akin ka sa gabi pagdilat sa umaga yo! wala kana sa tabi meron kahati gusto kita na mapasaakin kung pwede lang ba sana sa kanya kita nakawin at lagi mong iisipin kung hindi ka para sa akin wag mo lang makalimutin na ika'y mahal ko rin.

[Chorus]
Sa puso koy nag-iisa kahit merong iba kahit hindi tama ang ginagawa sinta basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya. At wag ng mangamba kahit sabihin na kalimutan ka di ko to makakaya basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya

[Verse 2]It really hurts ang magmahal ng ganito kung sino pang pinili ko hindi makuha ng buo hanggang ganun na lang nga kailangan ko tong tanggapin na sa puso mo meron na ngang ibang umaangkin at alam ko na rin na mayroon nang nagmamayari sa pag ibig sa iyo ako itong nakikihati at ano man ang mangyari 'di ko kayang manumbat at kahit pa ilihim mo ako sa lahat gaano man kabigat sa puso ko itong aminin hindi dadaing wag ka lang mawalay sa akin masakit man na isipin na ako ang naghiram kaya pinasya mong huwag na ngang ipaalam at kahit hindi to tama ako ay sumugal kahit pa nga alam kong mayroon kang ibang mahal binigay ko ang lahat kahit ganto ang natamo sa pag-ibig nang iba ako ngayon nakikisalo

[Chorus]
Sa puso koy nag-iisa kahit merong iba kahit hindi tama ang ginagawa sinta basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya. At wag ng mangamba kahit sabihin na kalimutan ka di ko to makakaya basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya
[Verse 3]Sa situwasyon natin na'to di ko alam kung san tutungo alam ko mahirap pag mali pero mahirap rin isuko paano ko masusuot sing-sing sayo na dala, kung sa paglalagyan nito meron na palang na unang nakilala mo ako di ko binalak mang-gulo gusto ko lang mapatunayan na ika'y mahal ko, yung binuo ang buhay ko sa mga nakaw na saglit kahit ang tawag lang sa akin ay dihamak na kabit.
Oo nga ikay sa akin at ako'y sa iyo, at ikaw din sa kanya at siya din ay sa iyo, yun ay aking tinanggap para makasama ka lang pero sana wag sabihin na nakasama ka lang pero sana rin wag tayong dumating pa diyan tiisin ko ang lahat e basta wag lang yan kahit alam kong mahirap mong tanggapin na mas na una siya sa iyo kesa sa akin

[Chorus]
Sa puso koy nag-iisa kahit merong iba kahit hindi tama ang ginagawa sinta basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya. At wag ng mangamba kahit sabihin na kalimutan ka di ko to makakaya basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya

YEAR OF THE "KABET"

WARNING!!!!NO OFFENSE TO THE PEOPLE WHO COULD RELATE TO THIS STORY....
MISTRESS  Part of Speech:  noun 
Definition:  ladylove 

Synonyms:  bedmate, best girl, chatelaine, concubine, courtesan, doxy, dream girl, fancy woman, girlfriend, inamorata, kept woman, ladylove, main squeeze, moll, old lady, other woman, paramour, prostitute, roommate, shack, shack job, sugar, sweetheart, sweetie 

WIKIPEDIA says...

A mistress is a long-term female lover and companion who is not married to her partner;

 the term is used especially when her partner is married. The relationship generally is stable and at least semi-permanent; however, the couple does not live together openly. Also the relationship is usually, but not always, secret. There is an implication that a mistress may be "kept"—i.e., that the lover is paying for some of the woman's living expenses.

The word mistress was originally used as a neutral counterpart to mister or master.

It’s a devastating experience to discover that your partner is cheating on your back, especially if you have been so faithful to the person. It is painful to accept the fact that you have been fooled and betrayed by someone whom you have trusted. Your initial reaction is to hate and curse the person. It is even more painful to be cheated upon on a guy’s side, knowing how men care about their ego. If you happen to have a cheating girlfriend, there’s a great chance that you lose your respect for her. Once respect and trust are broken, it is already hard for you to maintain your relationship. It is much better that you just put an end to your relationship or you can learn more tips and ways on how to get over a cheating girlfriend.

•Accept the damage. It may be hard to accept the damage caused by the infidelity but you don’t have any other option but to acknowledge it.
•Release your emotions. If you feel hatred for her, go on and hate her.
•Let her go. She has done it once and you cannot give yourself an assurance that she won’t do it again. It is also difficult for you to revive the trust again so you will always be flooded with doubts, suspicions, and fears.
•Gaining back your confidence. Do not let the infidelity ruin your self-esteem. It may have been affected but you should regain what you have lost and then go on with your life.
•Distract yourself. Instead of thinking about what happened, why don’t you go out with friends and get a life? Keep yourself busy so you won’t have time to think of her.
Just give yourself enough time and you will be able to get over your cheating girlfriend. There’s no need to rush.

ARTICLE FROM: http://www.yourlovetips.com/how-to-get-over-a-cheating-girlfriend/

LHORIE QUITALIG...SEXY SOLDIER... MODEL PLATOON

I've convinced everyone else that I don't like you and that I don't love you anymore. Now all I need to do is convince myself.



I ofter catch myself constantly wondering how you are, sitting alone with my mind set so far, reminiscing about your smile, voice and touch, damn this life... I'm missing you too much!

Leaving someone when you love someone It is the hardest thing to do when you love someone As much as I love you, oh, I don't wanna leave you Baby, it tears me up inside but I'll never be the one You're needing, I love you goodbye!!!

The REAL AYVHIE

For you to see the REAL Beauty of a person if you could  see her on  her most candid moment captured in the lens of the camera.

If you would ask me she have the beauty and the X-factor, I can't define in words what inner or outer beauty I found in her. But for me, She's one of the beautiful girl I met and captured on candid moments and still remain amazingly beautiful.

As "Bruno Mars" says "She's so beautiful...Just the way you are..."

I'm the one that loves you no matter wrong or right.

   n                                       



Goodbyes always hurt whether it's the right thing to do or not.

I never had a dream come true
'til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

PHOTOS TAKEN LAST JUNE 25, 2012 TEAM BUILDING VMUK

DI MO PALA MINAHAL

HOPIA ( ONE MORE CHANCE ) ... ASA KA PA!!!

Photo courtesy of Eng BEE Tin

All in all, I have no regrets. The sun still shines, the sun still sets. The heart forgives, the heart forgets. One more kiss, even though it's come to this. I'll close my eyes and make a wish... hoping you'll remember.

and

I never regretted telling you I liked you, I only regretted never hearing what you really thought of me.

you know what...

Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore.

I have waited for you for 2 years and I will wait for you for the rest of my life. Even if that means I have to give you up for the rest of my life, I will wait for you. I love you that much and nothing will ever change that.

I wish that I could hold you now... I wish that I could touch you now... I wish that I could talk to you... be with you somehow.

“She loved me at my worst. You had me at my best, but binalewala mo lang ang lahat… And you chose to break my heart.”
- John Lloyd Cruz, One More Chance (2007)

“Kasi ang totoo, umaasa pa rin akong sabihin mo: Sana ako pa rin. Ako na lang. Ako na lang ulit.”
- Bea Alonzo, One More Chance (2007)

Hindi mo alam kung gaano kagusto sabihin sayo na sana tayo na lang, sana tayo na lang ulit. Pero sa tuwing mararamdaman ko kung gaano kita ka mahal hindi ko maiwasan ulit maramdaman lahat ng sakit…. I want my heart to stop breaking – para pag naging tayo ulit kaya na kitang mahalin ng buong buo. Nang walang takot kung masaktan man tayo muli

- John Lloyd Cruz, One More Chance (2007)

Heere are some of the clips of the movies

You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart, you're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why.

I don't know which I would rather believe... that you never did care or that you eventually stopped.

Hold my hand, just one more time, so I can remind myself why it is that I can't get over you.

LOVE, PASSION, HOPE and REJECTION ( Quotes pt. 1 )

You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart, you're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why.

- If you LOVE someone, you better proveit cause if you don't, they might not believe it.

       for love is not a noun to be defined but a verb to be acted upon....

- Don't attach yourself to anything that needs to go. Everything in this world is not permanent.

       You just to have to love it, while you have it.

- NOT BECAUSE THE RELATIONSHIP IS OVER THE FEELINGS ARE GONE...

- Someone asked me "How do you avoid pain?" I laughed then answered slowly

        "It's easy just open your eyes then close your heart"

- Do you know what's wrong with SORRY?

         It gives people the wrong idea that any mistakes can be solved by a single word...

- It's not the happinessi feel when im with you, Iit's the loneliness i feel when you're not around...

- I'm not a facebook status to be like by all....

- You don't need complicated set of rules to find a good person to love you

         If a person loves you they'll do anything to keep you around...

" You don't love a woman beacuse she is BEAUTIFUL, but she is beautiful because you love her..."

- Never settle for being someone's OTHER, when you have the potential to be someone's ONLY!

-No matter how much you do good to other people they will still hurt you..

- Always have a personality like a salt....

        

          It's presence may not be felt, butit's absense makes everything TASTELESS!

- You don't need to do everything to be happy, You just need to take care of the person who's making YOU happy....

Hold my hand, just one more time, so I can remind myself why it is that I can't get over you.

Should I smile cause were friends, or should I cry cause that's all well ever gonna be.

I don't know what to say when it comes to her...
She have her own life to live...
she have what she called her own.
As my title say
" Should I smile cause were friends, or should I cry cause that's all well ever gonna be."
It's all that i could do just shed a tear whenever  i see her smile or laugh,
NO, I'm not crying beacuse she is happy with someone.
I'm crying because I'm not the one who makes that.

Yeah! she acknowledge my presence coz I'm there or I'm on her way.
But the essence of what i feel for her?
It doesn't exist for her.
Constantly ignoring of what I said and done.
Just dealing with simply beacuse I am civil to her,
So she is just doing the same. Even if I crack a joke or open up a conversation
she doesn't even care to listen.
The moment you just ask her for something that she could answer she would.
The worst way to love someone is when they are right beside you
and yet you know you can never have them.

I love her but I cannot show it, want her but she cannot know it,
need her but I know it'll never be, if only she needed me.

I think it's weird when I love you, I think it's weird when I want you, when you don't even know I'm there!

I HAVE TO LET YOU GO

I understsand that I'm a NOBODY, even my exisitence, you're not aware of it.
I am NO PERFECT person. I usually do commit errors or mistakes that would lead to a embarassing moment.
You always do ignore me in a group as if i wasn''t there.
You and used to be happy when we're together, sharing thoughts and ideas. Laughter and Joy, Bonding moments staying late just to chat over the phone as if we're not together for the whole day.
Just telling stories of what we done the whole day, planning ahead opf what if's....

The time that we're together you even mention that you don't want the day to end. You even want to be with me the whole day and the whole night.

All of the sudden drastic change happen, you're not the same person i know. You always disagree to what I said and suggest. And the worst you ended up of what we started.

You build a wall  between the two us, I realized that losing was very painful to me.
And I admit I was wrong and of course you're right.
Everytime I think of you I shed a tear can't accept the fact that you're not with me no more.

The most painful part is to remain friends with you eventhough I know the mere fact that I still LOVE you. Everytime i saw you or even your image in a certain photo or just a simple post of yours in facebook, It brings a small pinch in the heart knowing the some point in my life you were mine.
And all I could do is sigh and say "Hope I could get over you!"

As time would pass I learn just to read all your post and try to greet you same as others greet you with no string attached to it. However the feelings still there but I have to fight not to show you how much I miss you.

All I could do right now just watch you from a far that you're happy and contented in other arms.

I LOVE YOU BUT I HAVE TO LET YOU GO AND BE HAPPY WITH SOMEONE

BORN LOSER

I like to say something and this goes out for you   

The first time I saw you a put a little more

TRUST, Blast but i hate to past

This feeling that I know it's not easy to past


First time we met though strangers we are

So very close, yet I think it's very far

It's hard to believe, you're the one who relieve

The pain that I gain in my past full of pain

You're the apple of my eyes, I'm melting as ice

You make my day bright, bright even at night

How could i let you see the feelings inside of me

For me you found a friend, a friend till the end

Baby, I LOVE YOU but what could i do

Your heart is captured by somebody else and who

Let me know who'll be the lucky one

And I assure to you that I will be gone

You want to be friends, friends till the end

But my feelings is strong, how could i pretend

As time would pass as I shed my sorrow

I think the day would go, and wait for NO tomorrow

As life goes on, on and on and on

I will LOVE YOU till the break of dawn

My love for you will not go till ETERNITY

Cause' I will LOVE YOU till ETERNALLY

I'm a SUPER stupid a hundred percent BORN LOSER

I couldn't find a way in LOVE that I' a WINNER

You're the girl of my FANTASY, the girl of my REALITY

But I miss you a lot it's a trip to INSANITY

I want you to bear this in your deepest mind

That I'm always here if you don't wouldn't mind

I'm always here waiting for your LOVE and CARESS

For me time will perish but still you're the BEST!

Regina Building, Abandoned????

Abandoned???
Think not, you're just being HISTRIONIC...
there would be a time that you felt that you're left alone.  You know you got friends, but come to think of it, "Are they really you're friends?" or you're the only one who think that you are their friends?
One good example would be the people who seems to be in the entertainment world.
They interact with lots of people and they would always say that they love their fans, without the fans they are nothing. CORRECT??!!!
Now, of course these E-people (Entertainment people - Actors, Actress, Models, Dancers, Media, and every one in the entertainment world to be in-general.) have set of friends too.  Some would be there best buds, their bff, friends that they know they would gain benefit with, friends which they know along the way to thier stardom. Now how bout the friends that they met in their everyday life, especially in the social network sites, like FaceBook, Twitter, Multiply. The people they met in Events like, carshows, taping, rehearsals, fashion shows, parties, clubs, photoshoot etc.
How bout those people? Are they considered friends too?
You, have you met someone over the networking site that you treat them as your best bud?
or have you treated someone that you met in networking site as your acquaintance only, eventhough they treat you as their best bud and you  still always find a way to get rid of them once you cross paths in some venue or place?
Have you find too annoying to have this kind of friend, that treats you as if you're so close to them ,and you just treat them nice coz you can't avoid them that instant?
Are you one of the people who are now in stardom, doesn't acknowledge the people who help you to achieve where you are right now?
Or you do acknowledge them but you don't treat them, as they way you treated them before coz they are NO HELP to you now?
Are you of the them only remembers the people who help you, coz you need their help again? And you have no choice but ask their help?
If you're one of these people, THINK!!!!

Have you abandoned them or you abandoned yourself?

short journey to chinatown with "AYVHIE"

It started when i transfer from canada to united kingdom, i have NO IDEA of what i would encounter
in the said country. I have my training for more than a month, had my first barge-in with a petite and charming
lady named Ayvhie. She seems too tired of the shift, slouching in her chair, monotone voice, sleepy eyes.
     But still she's so beautiful in my eyes. Histrionic? YES! Exagage, but still i am stunned with her looks.
After a small chat, knowing little details bout her. I said to myself, this is just a beggining of a story to be told.
After my training, i see myself working with her a same work area just a work station away. I'm always
finding a way to have a glance of her, and see to it that she have a look to so i could see her eyes.
She always amazed me with her fabulous sense of fashion. For me she could be a model with the way she
dress herself, as if she was always in the catwalk, so petite, fair complexion, curly hair. I'm begining to like
her as i were a teenage high. As days pass i found myself providing my website to her and disclose that i am
a photographer as she visit my webite binondogallery.lens.ph and even ask her to have a photoshoot with
her. As she declined my offer that gives me an oppurtunity to talk to her.
     I ask for her to add me in "facebook" which she did. I'm too shy to ask her mobile number so i ask her
number over FB, and she gave it to me, i am so overwhelmed coz she is my "crush" and i have the oppurtunity to chat and befriend her. After sometime, that she have her leave i called her just to hear her voice and it felt good chatting with her.
     I ask her if he have a bf, she said she just broke up and it's on her 2 month of her break up, ask if she is
aware of the 3 month rule as per "JOHN LLYOD's movie". She said, YES! so i said to her that we have to wait for the 3 month rule then we will have our " LOVE STORY" She is surprised of what i've said but she don't know why she agreed or maybe i just assumed that she agreed to the condition that i told her.
     As the story goes on, we found ourselves chatting to each other, calling over our mobile phone for almost hours of chat, the longest hours i've talked to her was 4 hours and a half. I disclosed everything to her, from myself, to my family, to my background EVERYTHING she has to know bout me. And i know also part of her life as well. And we found out that we fell in love to each other, actually i'm the first one who fall in-love to her, eventually she followed.
    Things are working just fine and i don't want this story to come to to an end, That's why we'll stop here
and the rest of the story i don't want to disclose...


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