MAY in DECEMBER

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WOKE UP WITH DIMPLES RIVERA

“Lust fades after climax, love lasts until breakfast!” 

“Lust is the difference between loving someone and being in love with someone.”

YOU WERE NEVER MINE AND NEVER WOULD BE....

"Learn from your mistake", that's everybody is telling me, I answered: "YOU DON'T NEED TO COMMIT MISTAKE JUST TO LEARN"

Without pain, there would be no suffering, with out suffering we would never learn from ouR mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows, without it, there's no way of life.

Every one always  thought would be ok... However all thoughts are wrong as per a band say in thier song " Marami ang namamatay sa MALING AKALA!!!"

I thought we have a relationship, I thought you love me, I thought all we shared together was SPECIAL, I thought the long talk we have were true, it only entertained you coz I am the one who's calling you. After work, I tend to text you if i got home safely or want to know your whereabouts, and after that, I used to call you then have a little chit-chat eventhough we're together for the whole night. We never ran out of story to tell,
On my rest days we tend to talk over the phone for long hours, sharing stories, and expierence in lifes and anything under the sun.
However all them were just to entertain you while you're wasting your hours to talk to me, And I thought all your laugh was true, Yes! it's true coz I tend to make you smile or laugh sometimes coz of my funny antics. However, still you just laugh or smile simply because you were just entertained...
You know it's different if you see a lady smiling because she's in- love, you could see even her eyes is smiling too... And I don't see that on you... You even intentionally hid me to every one, At that time I was in a relationship with another womaan, so that's acceptable and of course reasonable coz you don't want to be tagged as "MISTRESS or OTHER WOMAN". And i respect that, All who know that we have "SOMETHING SPECIAL" are those people who were close to you, and I have to tell it also to one of my close friends too...
Now as time passses by, you simply drop me for some lame reason which I can't understand why....
Moving On would be very hard on my part, I love you so much It's hard for me to let you go... I just respect your decision that you have to let me go for someone else coz you're Happy NO MORE with me. And you don't want to be tagged as kept woman or other woman, MISTRESS.
As in the process of  Moving on, I need to divert all my attention to something that I could not think that I was a fool in love with some one which you don't know if she love you or not...





Eventually, I found out that she doesn't LOVE ME EVEN A BIT in the time that we were still together, And she leaves me because she was not Happy in what we have at that moment, she could prefer a single rather than sharing time with someone,Yes! I admit I'm unfair, coz I'm having two relationship. I'm being unfair to her. "What she doesn't know won't hurt her." as per ANNE CURTIS's line.

Now as I have moved on, I am enjoying living my life ALONE, I found out that

you have a relationship with a guy who have a family, and you are proud to be his girl, eventhough you told me last time that you don't want to be tag or called a MISTRESS and here you are, having an affair with a family guy, I'm not saying that I'm clean or what or I don't commit mistakes. What really makes me not understand is, you are what you don't want to be,

I see you walking with the girl you replaced me with. You looked at me and you make it looks like we've never met. I looked at you, yes, I see you happy with her. All I can say is I'm Happy for you..those words might come out of my mouth like that, but inside, it kills me how you acts like you don't know me and to see you with someone else.

yeah! It's not my business. It's your life anyway, my question is, when you're with me or you were wasting your time with me, you're not as proud as you are right now, It shows that you DON'T LOVE ME at all. And you're so much IN- LOVE with him that to the extent that you hang along with him in the public as if he don't have a family, unlike with me, you hid our relationship to every one to the extent that you even deny that we have a relationship at all. And now you are mad at me? coz what your man know that we have a relationship and you deliberately deny it.

I can't blame you, from the start all I know that you love me! As time pass by, you let me feel that I am NOTHING  to you, you make me feel worthless and if it's posible that you don't know me at all you would do it... and for my benefit I just found out that you NEVER LOVE ME at all.

I know by myself, that I have mistakes too. In the first place I let myself invovle to you. And I assume that we have a relationship or you are in-love with me... I was stupid enough not to notice that you didn't love me even a bit, You just find me NICE.And don't KNOW what you're thinkin, for me you just make me believe that YOU LOVE ME but the TRUTH is NO! YOU DON'T!

That's one of the main reason why you kept what we have to everyone and you don't want anyone to know that there's something going on between the two of us, All that we share and enjoyed are all lies, IS THAT TRUE? Sorry for being sO bitter to what happen to me, I just can't get the point what you're in right now?

JEALOUS? HISTRIONIC? YES! MAYBE.... or I just LOVE you so, and it's hard for me to let go... My friend told me it's about time to set you free, coz if you would pay attention closely to her eyes you would see that she is VERY HAPPY where she is right now, whatever she is doing she is very much contented and happy whatever the consequence would be,and she is perfectly know what she is dealing with... She's is intelligent enough to make her own decisions...

I suddenly paused and realize, I'm just being unfair to her or to myself, She doesn't love me and I still keep loving her, eventough I know the fact the she would NEVER love me...

I realized that she was never been mine, and NEVER would be, she just let me expierence of what's life if I would be with her, and I would not regret the days that I 'm with her even she acknowledge me as her boyfriend or not...

If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

It's the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say "what's the matter with him?" I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, or if you're just walking away.

YOU WERE NEVER MINE AND NEVER WOULD BE....

MY HOBY ... KAYETRINA ALMAZAN

My world was black and white until the day you walked through the door and into my heart...

You are the strength that keeps me walking

You are the hope that keeps me trusting

You are the light to my soul…

You are my purpose.

You're my Everything.

NO OTHER WOMAN that's a SECRET AFFAIR

A Secret Affair is an upcoming 2012 romance drama film directed by Nuel Naval, and it stars Anne Curtis, Derek Ramsay and Andi Eigenmann. It's a love triangle story set to be released this October 24, 2012 in more than 200 theaters in the Philippines by Viva Films^[2][3][1]

Third party relationships is the trend in Philippine mainstream movies nowadays. A Secret Affair tackles the same theme about lies, temptations and rules in a relationship.



It's been a trend in our local movies nowadays...
 Like:

-Have you heard the news I saw "MY NEIGHBOR's WIFE" with Mayor Bossing...
* Really??  She's the new "The MISTRESS"? I thought Mayor Bossing known for reputation for being "NO OTHER WOMAN" Man?
- That's what you think??? That's why they have a "SECRET AFFAIR"!

SEE....even in our music industry....

KABET by GAGONG RAPPER

[Verse 1]Kay sakit namang isipin na sa puso mo ako'y pangalawa sa tuwing makikita kitang kasama siya pinipikit ko ang aking mga mata at sa gabing kasama mo siya halos hindi ako makahinga kayakap ko ang bote ng tequila nagmumukmok sa ibabaw ng lamesa naghihintay hanggang sumapit ang umaga nang muli kang makasama.

Ano ating lagay hindi mapalagay ako'y nasasaktan pag hawak mo kanyang kamay sa kanya ka sa tanghali akin ka sa gabi pagdilat sa umaga yo! wala kana sa tabi meron kahati gusto kita na mapasaakin kung pwede lang ba sana sa kanya kita nakawin at lagi mong iisipin kung hindi ka para sa akin wag mo lang makalimutin na ika'y mahal ko rin.

[Chorus]
Sa puso koy nag-iisa kahit merong iba kahit hindi tama ang ginagawa sinta basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya. At wag ng mangamba kahit sabihin na kalimutan ka di ko to makakaya basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya

[Verse 2]It really hurts ang magmahal ng ganito kung sino pang pinili ko hindi makuha ng buo hanggang ganun na lang nga kailangan ko tong tanggapin na sa puso mo meron na ngang ibang umaangkin at alam ko na rin na mayroon nang nagmamayari sa pag ibig sa iyo ako itong nakikihati at ano man ang mangyari 'di ko kayang manumbat at kahit pa ilihim mo ako sa lahat gaano man kabigat sa puso ko itong aminin hindi dadaing wag ka lang mawalay sa akin masakit man na isipin na ako ang naghiram kaya pinasya mong huwag na ngang ipaalam at kahit hindi to tama ako ay sumugal kahit pa nga alam kong mayroon kang ibang mahal binigay ko ang lahat kahit ganto ang natamo sa pag-ibig nang iba ako ngayon nakikisalo

[Chorus]
Sa puso koy nag-iisa kahit merong iba kahit hindi tama ang ginagawa sinta basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya. At wag ng mangamba kahit sabihin na kalimutan ka di ko to makakaya basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya
[Verse 3]Sa situwasyon natin na'to di ko alam kung san tutungo alam ko mahirap pag mali pero mahirap rin isuko paano ko masusuot sing-sing sayo na dala, kung sa paglalagyan nito meron na palang na unang nakilala mo ako di ko binalak mang-gulo gusto ko lang mapatunayan na ika'y mahal ko, yung binuo ang buhay ko sa mga nakaw na saglit kahit ang tawag lang sa akin ay dihamak na kabit.
Oo nga ikay sa akin at ako'y sa iyo, at ikaw din sa kanya at siya din ay sa iyo, yun ay aking tinanggap para makasama ka lang pero sana wag sabihin na nakasama ka lang pero sana rin wag tayong dumating pa diyan tiisin ko ang lahat e basta wag lang yan kahit alam kong mahirap mong tanggapin na mas na una siya sa iyo kesa sa akin

[Chorus]
Sa puso koy nag-iisa kahit merong iba kahit hindi tama ang ginagawa sinta basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya. At wag ng mangamba kahit sabihin na kalimutan ka di ko to makakaya basta bay makasama lang kita kahit kapiling mo pa siya

YEAR OF THE "KABET"

WARNING!!!!NO OFFENSE TO THE PEOPLE WHO COULD RELATE TO THIS STORY....
MISTRESS  Part of Speech:  noun 
Definition:  ladylove 

Synonyms:  bedmate, best girl, chatelaine, concubine, courtesan, doxy, dream girl, fancy woman, girlfriend, inamorata, kept woman, ladylove, main squeeze, moll, old lady, other woman, paramour, prostitute, roommate, shack, shack job, sugar, sweetheart, sweetie 

WIKIPEDIA says...

A mistress is a long-term female lover and companion who is not married to her partner;

 the term is used especially when her partner is married. The relationship generally is stable and at least semi-permanent; however, the couple does not live together openly. Also the relationship is usually, but not always, secret. There is an implication that a mistress may be "kept"—i.e., that the lover is paying for some of the woman's living expenses.

The word mistress was originally used as a neutral counterpart to mister or master.

It’s a devastating experience to discover that your partner is cheating on your back, especially if you have been so faithful to the person. It is painful to accept the fact that you have been fooled and betrayed by someone whom you have trusted. Your initial reaction is to hate and curse the person. It is even more painful to be cheated upon on a guy’s side, knowing how men care about their ego. If you happen to have a cheating girlfriend, there’s a great chance that you lose your respect for her. Once respect and trust are broken, it is already hard for you to maintain your relationship. It is much better that you just put an end to your relationship or you can learn more tips and ways on how to get over a cheating girlfriend.

•Accept the damage. It may be hard to accept the damage caused by the infidelity but you don’t have any other option but to acknowledge it.
•Release your emotions. If you feel hatred for her, go on and hate her.
•Let her go. She has done it once and you cannot give yourself an assurance that she won’t do it again. It is also difficult for you to revive the trust again so you will always be flooded with doubts, suspicions, and fears.
•Gaining back your confidence. Do not let the infidelity ruin your self-esteem. It may have been affected but you should regain what you have lost and then go on with your life.
•Distract yourself. Instead of thinking about what happened, why don’t you go out with friends and get a life? Keep yourself busy so you won’t have time to think of her.
Just give yourself enough time and you will be able to get over your cheating girlfriend. There’s no need to rush.

ARTICLE FROM: http://www.yourlovetips.com/how-to-get-over-a-cheating-girlfriend/

7 MODELS for FUN SHOOT ( part three )

I've learned that friends and I can do nothing or anything and have the best time.

I LOVE YOU GOOD BYE

Wish I could be the one, the one who could give you love The kind of love you really need Wish I could say to you that I'll always stay with you But baby, that's not me
You need someone Willing to give their heart and soul to you Promise you forever Baby, that's something I can't do
Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you I know I'd only make you cry I'm not the one you're needing I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can find someway to understand I'm only doing this for you I don't really wanna go but deep in my heart I know This is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone Will be the one that I could never be Who'll give you something better Than the love you'll find with me
Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you I know I'd only make you cry I'm not the one you're needing I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone When you love someone Is the hardest thing to do When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh, I don't wanna leave you Baby, it tears me up inside But I'll never be the one you're needing I love you, goodbye
Baby, it's never gonna work out I love you, goodbye